Tidbits

Lots of stuff have happened in the last 6 month but yet only a few has been made known. I want to take some time to share about 2 particular things that happened.

Over the past 6 month lots of weird things happened to me that made me question why God was doing this in my life. I still don’t understand. But I know He did them for His own good and perfect will. I wish I can be more determined and faithful to Him through hard times. So I told Rainboy that “God works in weird ways but God works” but Rainboy corrected me and said “God works in mysterious ways but God works". I think Rainboy’s version is better =]

Another thing I want to share before I am gone for another month from “mypaper” is my trip back to Taiwan in mid-April for my grandma’s funeral. When I was born, I only had grandmas. My grandpa passed away before I was born. In year 2002, my mother’s mother passed away and I was sad because she was very close to me. I miss her dearly. This year, my father’s mother passed away and I thought I wouldn’t be too much affected by this because I was never close with this grandma. But after coming back from Taiwan, I realized that it’s the saddest thing that can ever happen because you have no memory of someone. So even if one day I want to tell my own kids about my father’s mother, I have nothing much to say.

So this made me think about the difficulties that my family had gone through and I am glad for the happy times but also much grateful for the difficulties and trials we experienced. In a few days, I will start a new family of my own and one day I can tell my kids about their grandpa and grandma and the stories of our past.

It really matters not how our lives are and all the “what ifs” that is like films that we constantly play through in our mind. What matters is that we can take our life memories with us as we go on each step of our life and generate strength and be encouraged from them and live a life that we can share with others.

[wish i could have typed this in chinese but this will have to do for now]